Being a Band Geek

People say that being in band makes you an instant geek...well that's not necissaraly true. It's seems like people look up to us because i feel like we are the life of the games! But we aren't really in the "high rankings", i guess you could call them. But that's not what i wanted to talk about in this post. People in band...they date people in the band. I mean, maybe that's just how our band works but...band people seem better together in relation ships then when a person outside of band and inside of band are dating. For example, in august at band camp, (Yeah, i know what your thinking about when i say that. not funny)i met this amazing guy. he was in the drum line and he was a sophmore. We just clicked...i thought he was the best thing since sliced bread. I thought I loved him. But, i know what your thinking, she's not even 15...so how can she know what love is?" Well trust me, i thought it was love. He made me soooo happy. He knew how to make me smile like nobody else could. But after a few months, he told he didn't know if he truely liked me. I thought my heart was broken...and not just my heart was, but me, myself was broken too. But, it's been about 3 months and i like somone else now. someone who just happens to be a sophmore...and in the drum line. excpet, this guy is wayyyy nicer and he's cute. I feel like he's for me. we have alot in common but we harldy talk anymre...he hardly texts me back anymore and i dont know what to do. I get really nervous around him...i get sooo scared to talk to him in person so i just...chicken out. so i'm praying to god that he will give me strength and that i can have a chance with this boy.